Monday, July 30, 2012

6 years

Al-fatihah to Allahyarham Azri bin Md Akib dan Allahyarham Adam Afiq bin Azri...

10 ramadhan 1433 now, and its been 6 years

Allahummag firlahum
warhamhum
wa'afihim wa'fu'anhum
waakrim nuzulahum
wawasiaq madkholahum
wagsilhum bilmaai wassalji wal barad
wanaq qihi minal qhotoya
kama yunaq qosaubul ab yadhu minad danas
amiiiinnn ya rabbal 'alamin.

Saturday, July 28, 2012

facing the new life (and reminiscing the old chapter) :)

Alhamdulillah
almost a month since coming back
semua ok, get back to my roots hehehe
and dah almost 2 weeks kat ipoh
adjusting much
belajar bersyukur, qanaah, jgn nak banding2 ngan warwick
at least, this is my country kan?
i'm happy enough sbb dah dekat ngan all my kesayangans
tapi one more thing yang tak tecapai lagi is to jumpa afifi akib
so sad kan? :(
semua orang dah hugs n kisses, but him. the closest but far away now T___T

takpa2, tak lama dah nak raya kan? ^_____^
insyaAllah, we'll see nanti!

got many things to put here
tapi the connection sangat sedih la
tunggu balik jitra la, laju sikit insyaAllah :)

but, i miss u UK :)
we shall meet again one day. next year, perhaps? *wink*

anyway, lets share the thoughts today! oh UK...

1. You won't be charged for withdrawing money from any bank's ATM

2. The overload of cheap fast food restaurants (which are more likely to be unhealthy). You don't have to go Pizza Hut, KFC, Kenny Roger's etc to enjoy a good fast food

3. Pure biryani made by the real biryani expert. cheap also. delicious!

4. The noise made by the drunk neighbours who were busy partying without thinking of others who were trying to rest

5. Dogs at the park (dial-up, wireless, or broadband) which always become the best excuse for me not to have regular exercise at the park. but i did try though. hahaha

6. There won't be animals e.g. cows, goats, sheeps etc randomly crossing the road and putting drivers' lives in danger

7. Coffee shops which sell nice and good coffee <-- i miss amber cafe! i drank java chips kat starbucks tadi. but still...

8. Planning for backpacking every year <-- still got places need to cover there. i want to go to Bosnia laaaaa...

9. The changing of seasons!!! It just makes me aware how fast time flies :)

10. Always being alert with the significant change of prayer times

11. Walking in the snow, stepping on the fallen yellow leaves, enjoying the beauty of colourful flowers and letting the skin burnt in the summer heat <-- super awesome u know!!!

12. Walking slowly and awkwardly on ice during winter and occasionaly hit your bottom on that cold ice hahaha sakit ok!

13. Being called 'love', 'sweetheart', 'sugar' by the nice old people, n sometimes orang muda pun paggill jugak. ehemmm..

14. Shopping cheap stuff at Sports Direct, Poundland, charity shops

15. House-hunting, house-viewing and making all sorts of demands to the landlord. 13 westminster was the best i can ask for! oh i miss my luxury room there :(

16. Putting on my overcoat, jumper before going out

17. Boxing Day <-- the feeling of jadi orang kaya once a year hahaha

18. The courtesy and the politeness of the people

19. The excellent and reliable public transport

20. Cheap books!!! And seeing how much reading has become their culture

21. The cute babies and kiddies

22. The culture of encouraging, appreciating and respecting each other

23. Cheap cards and nice presents for all occasions! How they love to show their appreciation and make others happy..

24. Their open, critical and non-prejudiced mind (perhaps not everyone, but in general, at least you don't feel discriminated)

25. How the people act when they're not satisfied with their government.

26. How they respect human rights they become so colourblind

27. How much they support the disabled people. i salute this so much!

28. How do they teach their child to have critical thinking from the early age

29. Seeing old couples walking side by side in town and at park, holding hands and enjoying the moment while they can. sobs, the sight was so pleasing :')

30. When drivers nicely stop the car and allow you to cross the road. try this at msia hahaha

31. When someone lends their hands to help with the heavy bags

32. When the door is held by someone even though you're still quite far behind. gentleman enough. n mostly handsome chaps! woot woot!!

33. Always brings a bottle that you can use it everytime you use the toilet, or the baby wipes.

37. Pray at random place as long as it's not in people's way. seriously i miss this :')

Thank you Allah for the chance to learn about life from a faraway land :)





Friday, June 29, 2012

Farewell...



in less than 24 hours and i'll be away from this land
and coming back to my beloved country and family, insyaAllah

the mix feelings of excitement, sadness, longing, sorrow, happiness and lots of indescribable things going on in my heart and mind
3 years may not be very long to some people
but it does indeed pour tons of bitter sweet memories for me
and with almost-burst-out luggage behind me
my stomach started to turn a somersault (since this morning actually)
hahaha

but one thing that i am sure of, nothing beats the feeling of seeing all my kesayangans waiting for me at the airport and i will hug them tightly, and kiss them a lot, a lot!!!


but most importantly, i will pray hard and i believe that all is well :)

Ya Allah, i pray that all will be well for us tomorrow
may this journey of coming back will always be in Your bless and protection
may this farewell is something good for everybody
may our heart and mind ease from any burden from this farewell
may this will not be the last chance for us to come to this land again
amiiinnnn ya rabbal 'alamiiin..

thanks Allah for everything :')

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Leaving ceremony for the 3rd Year Malaysian B.Ed. group

siang tadi ada majlis penyerahan sijil untuk students bachelor of education in TESL, kami la tu ^___^
semi-formal, and macam mini graduation la
tapi ni certificate of attendance ngan bagi group photo je
happy, but at the same time sangat sedih, seriously!

so sebab pagi ni (7.30am) nak pi london
so fini update yang tak official ni dulu
nanti dah dapat yang official semua baru upload lain
ni rush je upload ni sebab tadi busy baking
tu pun nanti eh, insyaAllah kalau sempat la :)

ni semua gambar from iphone je
mungkin lepas ni masing2 dah balik ipoh dah tak boleh nak get along macam ni
malaysia lain, kat uk lain
who knows kan :)

 tempat duduk pun dah reserved. sweet :')

ni lepas dah dapat folder. time salam kat depan tu kena tunggu official photo dari department la.

time ni la muka nak jerawat kaw2 punya! takpa2, redhoooo... 

oh btw, kebanyakan muka dalam ni adalah melekit beminyak sebab super sunny hari ni. nice.

with Tilly Harison

 with Pat and Maureen
(i look kediang disitu. urgh)

 with Seongsook Choi

 with Mukul Saxena. p/s: seriously his voice sangat best!!! dia nyanyi sambil main guitar hari tu, pergh!

my awesome lecturer / personal tutor, Peter Brown 

 with Andy Davidson and Peter Brown

 Tika. tak pernah nampak dia dalam blog kan sebelum ni? haha kali ni baru approved, so boleh masuk ;)

reunion 

 Dean

 Chip, Dean, Nuar

 Chip, Tika, Daus, Yana, Kayla, Anep, Dean, Haikal, Nuar, Kamal, Ag

Chip and Kamal
 ni boleh kata among best friends la. selalu lepak makan2 n gossip sekali. serius kuat gossip dua orang ni. hahaha

 Shoba, Chip, Kamal, Charlene
ni pun terbaik jugak nak buat benda merapu ni

Chip, Shoba, Daus, Kamal, Charlene 

 Shidi, Faiez, Yana, Shoba, Daus, Kamal, Charlene, Wazap, Ezi, Mek, Dell, Kayla, Chip, Dean

 Faiez. the tallest guy dalam class. serius tinggi gila. so panggil galah pun boleh! hahaha

 Epul

 Rocky

 Dell, Kayla, Yana, Shoba, Mek, Charlene, Wazap, Mei Ling, Ezi, Ashley

 masuk dalam art centre pulak. kat sini la tempat tengok wayang dalam uni. murah! 


 us, the housemates :)

 sobs, sedih dah. lepas ni tunggu graduation next year, insyaAllah.

nanti dah keluar yang official mungkin better sikit pics :) 

p/s: fini pakai 3 inch heels ni. so nampak la tinggi sikit. hehe


Sunday, June 24, 2012

of missing u

i'm watching The Holiday (again!!) and the scenes in England's countryside make me realise how I'm gonna miss this country so damn much! you are so unimaginably beautiful darling england. i will miss u. and i hope u'll miss me too..

so sunday, today is, and 7 (what!!!) days to go before i'm going back, for good this time. i believe, it will be another huge life-time opportunity to come here and living in this idyllic life again. but who knows, God's plan :) i'm definitely glad to be back to my family and my country, but watching this movie somehow make me terribly sad and i had to pause again and again when it came to the snowy fields, small town, old cottages, sheeps, and what is most beautiful is the accent. u notice the different in accent between american english and british english right? i love the silent and sometimes melodically captivating sounds they make when they speak, in this case Kate Winslet and Jude Law. i'm gonna miss this world, really.

what i'm gonna miss more and more about england is the land itself. i tell u, all the photos, movies, stories cant do justice to what they really are. they are so crazily magnificent. each place, each season has its own miracle and its really hard to describe it with words. experience it, feel it, live with it and u will feel how this land can teach u more and more meaning of bersyukur. the unexpected weather makes it more fun to live with. thats why they coined it as "english weather" as how crazy the weather is here.  believe me, it is crazy. hahaha and this year they seem to joke about the 40% summer's unloading. and weather is always a natural and safe topic with strangers everywhere in england. try it, u wont be disappointed :)

and i will miss the people as well. how nice they are, how beautiful, literally and figuratively, they are. i might fall in love again and again with the people. most of the people are so sweet, considering i am just an insignificant foreigner in their majestic country. calling u with nice endearments, thanking and pleasing u whenever possible, respecting your right and freedom. and so i have learnt plenty of positive attitudes from the people, and i am grateful for that.

ok, well, a lot things to tell about england but i cant see any more word to put in here. i'm torn between the happiness to be back again and the heavy feeling of leaving this land. i'm not talking about coming back here for holiday. it is a totally different thing to live here for years and just visiting for weeks. it wont be the same again. but, i am indeed, sangat bersyukur for this chances. for the most beautiful part in my journey of life, yet. alhamdulillah, thanks Allah.

i'm so melancholy tonight (or should i say morning? its 2am now). looking at my luggage and my empty wardrobe, urghhh this indescribable feeling!!!

Thursday, June 21, 2012

farewell bbq

on monday CAL department organise BBQ party utk seniors TESL
makan2 ngan ada few games
bets la, have fun ngan lecturers for the last time sebelum balik for good ni
ada sukaneka, tarik tali, rounders and bola tampar
ohooo i played volley ball ok that day!
surprisingly, bestttt!!!
so my team ada dean, wazap, charlene, yana, faiez, aa  and nuar
menang ok!!!! walaupun afini tak la menyumbang sangat
tapi still i had lots of fun that day!

gambar ni semua cilok fb. sibuk main. tak sempat nak snap pic.



 ni time practice. tengok dari belakang pun dah tau semangat je lebih afini ni.


 bersukaneka

 pose sebelum main



Tuesday, June 19, 2012

depressing

*skip this entry please. i just need to rant*


another 11 days before coming back
keep on praying that all will be well, insyaAllah..

i dont know whether this is the time of the month or because of the norwegian wood
thanks to haruki murakami, it become worse
i am now in a really terrible state of mind
sejak 2-3 bulan ni kan
cepat gila jadi grumpy
rasa macam nak snap je semua benda
tak boleh nak tolerate lots of things
but i have to bear with all those, days and nights
it really tried my patience
i'm afraid of becoming the old me. panas baran and nak gaduh je
tapi, believe me. i tried and keep on trying (even now) so hard to keep it deep down inside
although i missed it sometimes, and it appeared on the surface.
however, my self-control is improving i believe
instead of gaduh, i would have a long warm bath with lots of bubble
pastu perform wudhu' and baca quran
really, i dont want to be a horrible person
tak mau panas baran sangat, kena banyak sabar
insyaAllah, i try and try and try.

the best remedy i can think of now is go back home
mengadap muka makayah, eat tons of tasty healthy food, play with nephews and niece
and live a long happy life with my family
hopefully boleh get back to normal, insyaAllah :)