*skip this entry please. i just need to rant*
another 11 days before coming back
keep on praying that all will be well, insyaAllah..
i dont know whether this is the time of the month or because of the norwegian wood
thanks to haruki murakami, it become worse
i am now in a really terrible state of mind
sejak 2-3 bulan ni kan
cepat gila jadi grumpy
rasa macam nak snap je semua benda
tak boleh nak tolerate lots of things
but i have to bear with all those, days and nights
it really tried my patience
i'm afraid of becoming the old me. panas baran and nak gaduh je
tapi, believe me. i tried and keep on trying (even now) so hard to keep it deep down inside
although i missed it sometimes, and it appeared on the surface.
however, my self-control is improving i believe
instead of gaduh, i would have a long warm bath with lots of bubble
pastu perform wudhu' and baca quran
really, i dont want to be a horrible person
tak mau panas baran sangat, kena banyak sabar
insyaAllah, i try and try and try.
the best remedy i can think of now is go back home
mengadap muka makayah, eat tons of tasty healthy food, play with nephews and niece
and live a long happy life with my family
hopefully boleh get back to normal, insyaAllah :)
2 comments:
hy darl.
1. mybe its time of the month :D
2. if it is others fault, just let them be. dont burden urself to feel sad and depress. there's more to live!
3. else, reflect urself. muhasabah here and there. sometimes we forget that we also contributes to the problem.
4. evaluate urself and others.
5. have fun :)
Mcm asyraf la cpt naik angin ......ok la tu
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