Thursday, November 7, 2013

sweet little thing

ok since this is one of the most sweetest things someone did to me
i'm going to write it here
so here it goes:

i was a substitute teacher in smk megat dewa from 18 august - 25 october 2013
alhamdulillah i got the chance to teach the students from form 1-5
tbh, most of them were naughty hahaha
but i enjoyed teaching them and we got along so well
and those form 4 and 5 were the closest with me (some still text and call me every day ^__^ )
we have sooo many sweet memory together!!

sooo, starting yesterday, the form 5 students are sitting for their SPM
and today is english paper
of course i was so nervous!! now dah ok hahaha
what make me so happy and senyum sambil type ni is
there was a call around 1.30pm by a student of mine
he just finished his paper at 12.45 and called me just to inform about the exam
and, and, that he wrote an essay about me!!
isn't that sweet??? hihi
he wrote about how i change his life to be a better person bla bla
because the essay is something about "and now i am a better person"
hihi i'm not so baik la to change a person
and he is already a good boy pun! he is quite naughty, but in a good way
macam mana eh, nakal yang boleh make u laugh la
bukan nakal yang rasa nak marah tu..
anyway, the way he told me what he had written melts my heart laaa
he mentioned my name, hometown, my voice, things that i had done and how i usually talk to him
haih.. thanks for having high regard for me
i wish all the best darling!
may Allah ease everything for u in the future :')

eh lagi satu, spotted essay and poem masuk la
alhamdulillahhhhh :)

ok tu je
dah jadi cikgu ni
kalau student call cakap thank you pun dah boleh happy kan? :)

Tuesday, October 8, 2013


i've always been a hot-tempered person
but bila dah makin besar ni (literally and figuratively)
i rather know how to control myself
no more outburst yang soon will embarrass myself
i learn how to keep it to myself
or sometimes i rant it out to someone i hold very close to my heart (thanks darling!)
but yeah, it's fine for me.

and i am easily annoyed, like seriously senang gila rasa annoying
benda2 yang insignificant pun boleh jadi issue
tapi instead of marah, cry (what?!) or amukan
i will keep it, press it deep deep deep down
benda macam ni i rarely (tak pernah kot) tell others
sebab selalunya benda2 kecik je
so rasa macam perlu la kan nak tell someone
dah sorang2 tau sudah
sendiri tak puas hati, sendiri simpan
tapi ni la masalah dia
bila selalu sangat simpan rasa annoying tu
lama2 benda tu akan muncul kat surface
hah bila jadi macam tu
the dragon will rear its ugly head la
urgh, hideous!

and now jadi serabut
the whole day tak boleh buat kerja sebab rasa serabut ni
haih. solat pun tak khusyuk tau
how eh?

this entry doesnt make sense, i know
it's just me trying to let my dragon breathes a little bit of smoke

afini, please recompose your usual self. thank you.

Monday, September 30, 2013


hujan2 macam ni tetiba rindu gila hidup zaman few years back
time tu macam happy je
workload tak banyak
tapi duit banyak! hahaha

rindu sangat nak pi holiday macam dulu-dulu
tiap2 kali holiday mesti pi jugak mana-mana
even london
london tu pun kalau pi tempat lain pun, tetiba rasa nak pi pun boleh p je ;)

tapi yang ingat sangat sekarang ni time pi paris for the first time
sepanjang 3 tahun kat sana, alhamdulillah boleh p paris 3 kali
theres something in paris that makes my heart loves it so much
despite the roughness of the people (some jer), the beggars, quite dirty, mahal serba serbi
but stilllll...

first time pi paris in 2010, first year undergrad
the beginning of summer holiday
2 weeks before balik malaysia
we stayed there for 4 nights
p semua 12 orang (quite ramai kan?), all girls
tapi the most significant thing yang buat this trip sangat memorable was the day when it was just three of us; kayla, yana n I, 
we travelled the magnificent city just three of us
the whole day from morning till evening dah spend kat disneyland
in which located kat outskirt paris
then dari situ terus cross p eiffel tower
padahal the day before dah pi
but this time, nak rasa malam kat eiffel
and teringin sangat nak naik 
alhamdulillah we did go up sampai puncak!
and balik tu macam2 benda jadi
we did run dlm underground metro station sebab takut gila nobody was there!!
hahaha tu la gatal sangat nak jalan 
balik hotel, sengap je kami masuk bilik
pastu kuk kik kuk kik

it was the best momment la
i miss you, paris
i miss traveling laaaaaaaa

oh btw, for my future reference this is the entries for Paris :)

Friday, April 26, 2013


last day of practicum
mixture of feeling
but, currently i feel like crying
never thought that i would have this kind of attachment with the students
seriously, they are sooooo lovely, both girls and boys
with their "hi teacher" and "hello miss afini"
haih... i'm going to miss them, a lot!

and yesterday, one of my students asked me "teacher, do you think you will have the same students like us?"
i was speechless
and i know deep inside, my next students would never be the same :'(
i will love all my students (in the future)
but these Bainunians are my first babies
i will treasure all the memories here forever

to my 4 Rho, 4 Pi and 4 Beta, i pray to Allah may He ease everything for you
and even though i'm not teaching other forms
but we still got the chance to meet, talk and joke with each other
may you have wonderful days ahead
till we meet again, insyaAllah

special love goes to jagger, thanks for always cheering up my life
and providing me with the sort of motivation to come to school hahaha
i'm gonna miss your mischievous remarks and smile ;)

thanks for all the memories
thank You Allah for giving me the chance to be here :')

Tuesday, February 12, 2013


happy birthday
wherever you are right now
may you always be in His protection and blessing


Tuesday, January 22, 2013

life as a novice teacher

should i call myself a teacher now?
yeah, i think i can now!
u know why, i carry out all the stuff that teachers do
alhamdulillah, still manage to do it
penat? super duper penat u know!
i do complain, but not regularly la hahaha
but, i am grateful. thank You Allah
at least, even I have to wake up so much earlier that my friends (5am!), go to school so far away from my hostel, drive on the scary road every dawn and evening
but still, my school is classified as an excellent school, my colleagues are all friendly, funny and supportive and what i love the most are my students
seriously, they are good and show a lot of respect towards me
as a new and just a temporary teacher (just until 26 april) they have given me full cooperation
and greet me everywhere i go!
i feel loved, u know hahaha
biasa la, cikgu baru memang keciwi macam ni!

as per cik kak questions:
the canteen is so-so
1. the food is edible
2. the price is quite cheap
3. the kakak / makcik canteen are nice, but they arenot over peramah. so i'm okay with that :)
4. the bilik makan cikgu is comfortable and i can see the students queuing outside. hahaha i dont have to!!

 ni sekolah bagi. so everything about the school is in there 

 the gate. taken from inside the car

 my record book. need to write my lesson plans in there. urgh, ni definitely bosan!

my workstation:

 the glass and wrapping paper tu mmg dah ada. so tak lawa pun ok la 

my stationary case. cute right? bought at MaggieT ;) 
the stack under my lappy case belongs to cikgu azeera. dia mintak tumpang meja. biasa la cikgu practical kan baikkkk

 my pouch for phones and pocket money nak pi minum teh ais ngan kueytiaw sup at teh canteen. and the pink tumbler. yeah yeah i know, i'm cute! hewhewhew

 one of my classes. 4 Beta. ni on wednesday, they have to wear the uniform for ko-ko

my timetable. 10 periods a week. nampak free banyak kan? tapi selalu dapat slip untuk ganti cikgu2 yang MC. so not so free la :)

nanti i'll update about my students pulak ok :)

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

new phase - practicum

hello everyone

currently updating my blog from the staff room of SMK raja permaisuri bainun, ipoh perak
this is my second day as a practical teacher in this school
alhamdulillah, surviving very well
the teachers are all good and supportive
the students mostly well-mannered and quite good
we dont have super naughty students here
they are all quite bright in their study
oh btw, this is a "sekolah kluster kecemerlangan"
so, all striving for As in exam
one more thing, the boys wear exactly like putera maahadian
minus the songkok
i miss my time back in maahad
specifically, i miss the specific someone badly. haih.

i have my own meja guru
seated next to cikgu shahril and in front of cikgu rahman and my back face the friendly cikgu sanisah
they all decorate their meja guru with frames, flowers, books, biscuits, tempeyek etc
should i put some decoration as well? hahaha
for now, my only decoration is my darling mackbook pro
oh ya, and few books for reference
so, welcome back collins, hedge and gass & selinker
long time no see, huh?

pray for me, please?
and may Allah ease my journey here

see you when i have free periods. ceyyyy

yours truly,