of missing u

i'm watching The Holiday (again!!) and the scenes in England's countryside make me realise how I'm gonna miss this country so damn much! you are so unimaginably beautiful darling england. i will miss u. and i hope u'll miss me too..

so sunday, today is, and 7 (what!!!) days to go before i'm going back, for good this time. i believe, it will be another huge life-time opportunity to come here and living in this idyllic life again. but who knows, God's plan :) i'm definitely glad to be back to my family and my country, but watching this movie somehow make me terribly sad and i had to pause again and again when it came to the snowy fields, small town, old cottages, sheeps, and what is most beautiful is the accent. u notice the different in accent between american english and british english right? i love the silent and sometimes melodically captivating sounds they make when they speak, in this case Kate Winslet and Jude Law. i'm gonna miss this world, really.

what i'm gonna miss more and more about england is the land itself. i tell u, all the photos, movies, stories cant do justice to what they really are. they are so crazily magnificent. each place, each season has its own miracle and its really hard to describe it with words. experience it, feel it, live with it and u will feel how this land can teach u more and more meaning of bersyukur. the unexpected weather makes it more fun to live with. thats why they coined it as "english weather" as how crazy the weather is here.  believe me, it is crazy. hahaha and this year they seem to joke about the 40% summer's unloading. and weather is always a natural and safe topic with strangers everywhere in england. try it, u wont be disappointed :)

and i will miss the people as well. how nice they are, how beautiful, literally and figuratively, they are. i might fall in love again and again with the people. most of the people are so sweet, considering i am just an insignificant foreigner in their majestic country. calling u with nice endearments, thanking and pleasing u whenever possible, respecting your right and freedom. and so i have learnt plenty of positive attitudes from the people, and i am grateful for that.

ok, well, a lot things to tell about england but i cant see any more word to put in here. i'm torn between the happiness to be back again and the heavy feeling of leaving this land. i'm not talking about coming back here for holiday. it is a totally different thing to live here for years and just visiting for weeks. it wont be the same again. but, i am indeed, sangat bersyukur for this chances. for the most beautiful part in my journey of life, yet. alhamdulillah, thanks Allah.

i'm so melancholy tonight (or should i say morning? its 2am now). looking at my luggage and my empty wardrobe, urghhh this indescribable feeling!!!